I feel like I'm at the crossroads. For anyone else out there that finds themselves in a similar position, here's a tip; don't put on The Love Songsof a certain Mr. Lionel Richie. That stuff can bring you down. Bobby needs a little Dr. Feelgood to bring me back up. Sometimes I wish there was a path to follow. Job, home, car, woman - How do you fit them all together? Do they all fit together? Yesterday I said I looked in Queens for a place to live and that I liked Queens. I found out later that a one bedroom costs $1100/$1200. It just breaks your heart. Back in Ohio I could rent two homes for that! For the amount of money I paid out in rent over the last five years, I could have owned my own home. Not a big house mind you but a nice place. The closer you are to the city, the more money it costs. Here's a conversation I had yesterday with a real estate agent:
Bob: Here's what I'm looking for, promise not to laugh...
Agent: Go ahead...
Bob: I'm looking for a one bedroom in the neighborhood of $800.
Agent: Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!
That's a true story. So, I'll probably just end up staying where I am. There's no Late Show in Ohio. That's what I keep telling myself. AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! That felt good. When I did my laundry this weekend, I almost screwed up my good shirts. The shirts and my whites go in small washers and the rest goes into a big machine. Well, I got the whites and the shirts mixed up. I put powered bleach into the machine with my shirts! I was almost in tears. I got a paper towel and quickly scooped up all the bleach. There was bleach everywhere! I apologized to the lady for messing up her machine. Thank goodness, there was no damage to my shirts. I've got some kind of crazy bad karma going on - If you believe in that kind of thing. It may have happened when I walked out of that bar. I think Marly put a hex on me. However, I was sweating before I met her so, that doesn't hold water. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! I just did the spell check, I misspelled bleach every time, I spelled it "bleech." I've misspelled that word before. Funny how the mind works and what memories get brought up from years ago. OK, well, this Diary sure was depressing, wasn't it?
Everything happens for a reason, I think. Have a great day.
